It has been a long time since I’ve shamelessly spilled my guts on the Internet for the world to see. I have learned that it isn’t always best to ‘cast your pearls before pigs’ (of course I’m not talking about my audience). Sarcasm off. But every now and then, a dump session is good for the ego. It lets people know you are a real person who has real conflicts.
My personality type is always reaching for success. I could be unemployed, flat broke, and hurting, but I will go to great lengths to show the world that I am successful. I was born with a need to succeed and will work toward that no matter what situation I am in.
I have set the bar high for myself. At this age, I expected to be married with many kids, leading a new church movement that would make a positive impact in the world, and be financially bank rolling it all.
Instead, I am 32, single (and loving it), working as an assistant Pastor at a small church in Duncanville (with amazing students who are a blessing to work with), doing important Database work at a Private School, and no children (at least that I know of) - sarcasm back on).
My new life, this life, today, now, I am learning to listen to the voice within – The one that God placed there a long time ago. I am learning that success has many faces. My Master Jesus died on a bloody cross. I am learning to be authentic and the important thing is who you really ARE. It doesn’t matter how others see you if they don’t see reality.
I am learning that my past and my future play a role but that my present situation is the one I have. Switchfoot has a lyric ‘this is your life, and today is all you got NOW.’
I am learning – I am growing – I am wrestling with what it means to be human. I’m going through ups and downs. I’m experiencing mistakes, successes, and forgiveness. I’m learning about letting go and embracing. I’m focusing on enjoying the many faces and the many blessings that are daily available.
I hope to publish a book by the end of this year. I am attractive and attract many girls but have not chosen one to be my lawfully wedded bride…yet.
I am in season 2 of Game of Thrones and also a couple other shows. I am madly waiting for the final season of Mad Men to begin. Hopefully Don will find the gospel.